see, she moved out over a month ago to her father's in quebec city. more than two hours away. this was a good move, i thought. not only for her sanity, but also for mine and ours. see, we haven't been together for the past two years, but we managed to remain really good friends. we kept in touch and sometimes saw each other. but the times we saw each other, attraction always took the best of us. always. even when we intended not to act on it, keep it light and friendly, our instincts were always far stronger than our collective will. but it was fun. and no one was hurt in the process.
but see, she's here now. today. she came in town last night to get some stuff back from her old apartment (that she shared with her then-boyfriend). anxiety shot up through my body when i learned that she was here, a mere 10 minutes away by car. i wanted to see her, but, as she also knew because we'd always been lightly flirting through our emails and phone calls, i also didn't wanna see her for that very reason. lol
so, after talking back and forth about it we came to the conclusion that it was better if she didn't come by my place to say hi today. we always have the best of intentions but a mutual attraction this strong is hard to resist.
she is not the girl for me - not mature enough right now, didn't like or know the kind of music i'm deeply into, same goes for films, etc. not my type of girl on that front (and music and films make up a huge chunk of my life/personality). but in the physical sense, i now know what it is to really connect. and i will never settle for less. now i know what real sexy attraction is, what it feels like to really want someone, or feel the need for someone else. this is in our bones. and it's not going away anytime soon.
that was my morning story. i wanted to share.
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