all weekend-long i was under the guilt/doubt spell of whether or not i'd done the right thing by ending my relationship with the girlfriend. thankfully, the ex-roommate spent saturday afternoon with me and got me to drive over and spend most of yesterday with her. that was nice. it took me out of my head for while. but after i got home i was once again confronted by the guilt. i watched some tv, talked to the roommate on the phone. i finally wrote to my ex-ex, who's been one of my friends for the past few years, about leaving my girlfriend and feeling fucked over it. oh yeah, and i kept checking, like i've been doing all weekend-long, if i had any new messages on my answering machine. i just wanted her, the ex, to call back so i could talk to her and see how she was doing. later on last night the phone rang and it was the ex-ex! it had been a while since we last spoke and it felt nice to hear her voice. we actually talked for over two hours on the phone. lol :) she helped me out some. this morning i woke up and could still only think of the ex, though, so i went out and took a walk in the snowy white streets to clear my mind. it didn't help. all i was going through was what i'd tell the ex about our breakup and how i'd love to remain friends, etc. anyway. cut to: just now -- she called :D she even said she tried calling last night and stopped trying at midnight. doh! that's when the ex-ex and i cut our conversation. damn. but yeah. she's actually doing real well. she says she was torn up saturday but yesterday was mostly fine. that sucks. lol. it looks as though i'm more torn up about it than her :) but that's okay. i'm glad she's doing well. she wanted to know if we'd keep in touch. i said of course! :) i'm glad she wants to remain friends. i told her she could call me up anytime. she told me the same. so we're gonna be okay. i'm not done going over it, the reasons for wanting to breakup got murky after a while, but that phone call relieved me a bit. it feels nice to know she's doing okay and still wants to talk to me :)
that's it.
| 2:38 pm |
oh my god.
sorry Mark but Zip just upped the fucking ante on Netflix coming to Canada next year. they've been off all morning, upgrading to the promised new features, and boy are they plentiful and the new look is brilliant. i'm seriously impressed.
np: lil jon & the east side boyz - crunk juice
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