life feels good. this week started out weird, bitter and sad, then i had friends and work to fall back on, then thursday night i got bitterly jealous. yesterday i saw the ex again at work and she was either trying to be nice to me or wanna get back with me. i wasn't sure. either way, it wasn't gonna be soon so i'd better go on with my grieving. spent the day driving out to my mom's to check out her computer. then i spent the entire afternoon with the ex-roommate, running errands left and right, playing with the cat, and watching tv. but i'd talked to the ex and i'd let her know i was coming back around dinner time. so i was kinda pressed for time and wanted to come back early enough not to miss her call(s). i just got off the phone with her. she spent the day at home, alone, watching movies and eating. to my surprise, though, she's much more caught between the other guy and i than i was expecting. i thought since i couldn't offer her a real relationship (ain't in love) she'd sure as hell take a chance with the other guy whom she was interested in last year. but no. seems she liked the time we spent together. anyway. i'm just flattered. i miss her. i miss the time we spent together. absolutely. but i'm not as stupid as to expect her to come back to me. no fucking way. i wouldn't do it if i was her. but it's nice to know that i'm not the only one agonizing over this decision. we might do something tomorrow night. either watch a dvd or go out to a movie (Ong-Bak -- sadly, in french 'cause no one's showing the original version anywhere in quebec. it's either english or french. and i showed the trailer to the ex-roommate, just so she'd know what i was talking about and blow her mind in the process. obviously, since it was a dub, i'd made up my mind not to go see it -- but damn, by showing her the trailer i convinced myself to go see it :P lol). so that's it. that's where we're at today. i'm happy to say i'm actually content tonight.
swung by the record store on my way back and finally picked up:
Bright Eyes - Lua
Bright Eyes - Take It Easy (Love Nothing)
Future Shop was closed when i got back so i couldn't go there. they've got a couple of cd's i wanna pick up. tomorrow.
Posted by Anonymous | 7:33 PM
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